I’m not very good at dealing with death or sadness and when I said I wanted to be left alone, it’s because that is how I prefer to deal with trauma. I’m crap at hugs and all that when I’m scared and sad and I just want to go into my cave, but the well wishes have given me strength and faith in humankind.
I want to talk to people but I’m not very good at it. I really don’t know what to say and I am mindful that it is really difficult for other people.
I’m hurting, of course I am and it is so much worse because it was so violent, tragic and intended. It’s a week past already but it only feels like yesterday to me.
Anyway….I will recover given time and when I do I tend to take life far less seriously. Well, that’s how I feel now – please feel free to kick me up the arse in the future if I forget.
I wasn’t going to continue with my A-Z April challenge because I don’t feel like it, I’m bloody shattered and my theme “The Meaning of Life” has a sting to it now. However, I need a distraction from the everyday dealings of death and this is what I do. Also, I don’t want to let down all the fantastic people who have taken part and rob my readers of some wonderful advice and life stories. I hope you support them.
I apologise for not visiting all your blogs. You know you lot mean the world to me and I know you understand why. I’ll be dropping by, as and when I can.
Kisses to you all and thank you. xx